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[04 Sep 2004|03:24pm] |
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Vanilla Ice- "Ice Ice Baby" |
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Ok, I'm so bored I want to do something. I don't know if anyone is even going bowling tonight and it totally sux. I'm so aggitated (?). Damn that hooked on phonics! Did it work?! No. Ugh!
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| Finally Some Resolution..... |
[03 Sep 2004|07:43pm] |
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Blink 182- "Going Away To College" |
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As of yesterday me and Kris have made peace with each other, so yeah, I'm happy. Cause seriously, you can only argue with someone for so long until it gets really old. Despite all the crap he put me through, I can't ever see my life without him and that fully scares me. He's like one of the few people in my life who really understand me.
-silence-
Damn. That was actually legible when I read it aloud. Go me.
I got Costume Manager for the play. MaLori works for me. (tee-hee) Thespian is like a little more than two months away!!! It'll be SOOO much better than last year.
*thinks about bathrooms*
*shivers*
Yeah.....SOOOOO much better! J/K. I love Valerie, (F.Y.I I've also made peace with her)but seriously if anything should happen again, ma and my converse won't be taking it lightly.
Song for your enjoyment.
(Some of "Going Away To College" by Blink)
Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off
And if young love is just a game
Then I must have missed the kick off
Don't depend on me
To ever follow through on
Anything, but
I'd go through Hell for you and
I haven't been this scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared, so here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me
Thought of the day:
"Phillip leave me the HELL alone!"
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| Fight |
[01 Sep 2004|05:51pm] |
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Sam On The Phone |
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Today when me & my grandma picked Kimberly (my sister) up from school she was being a little bitch. She got in the car and hit me and said "Turn down the music!!!"
F.Y.I. music was down to low.
Anywho, she kept on and on about how stupid I was and how much better she is than me then I said, "Just wait 'til you get in to Jr. High, People aren't going to take your crap then they'll totally kick your ass."
"Whatever, Holly. You're stupid. I could take you down when we get home."
"Fine, we'll see."
"Yeah, we will."
So she gets out of the car, opens my door, I get out, she hits me....then I trip her and she fell on the driveway, I crossed her arms and legs together, sat on her, then she started to cry. I get off. She gets back up, hits me again, then I take her down......again, in the alley, she cries again, then after ALL of this is down my grandmother says....
"Okay, that's enough break it up."
It was kinda like that episode of South Park when Jimmy and Timmy fight then when its all down, that guy tells them to stop. Funny as hell.
And still Kimberly is walking around the house saying "You better watch your back."
10 year olds are really stupid.
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[30 Aug 2004|07:57pm] |
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All American Rejects- "Time Stands Still" |
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Today went well except for when Kris called me a bitch & I came back with "penis". Of all the words in the world, I had to say "penis"........
I tried out for techie for the play, cuz yeah.....I can't sing for beans. Hopefully, I get it.
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| Update |
[29 Aug 2004|05:59pm] |
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 Damn Head-ache!!! |
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Hoobastank-"Disappear" |
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Hey all.
I'm getting ready to go to a hockey game with Malori. Fun,fun,fun. She should be here in like 30 minutes so I better hall-ass and get ready a tad-bit faster.
Love y'all
-smooches-
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| Friends Only |
[28 Aug 2004|08:17pm] |
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All American Rejects- "Happy Endings" |
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I think I'm gonna make this Friends Only, so if you want to be added let me know.
<3 y'all!!!!
 isn't Tyson hott when he's sweaty?!
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| Yet Another Poem...... |
[28 Aug 2004|03:54pm] |
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Taking Back Sunday- "Under The Influence" |
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All of the torment and the pain
just for you to come back and use me again
Don't you know how bad you hurt me?
Never again, can you & I be
Nothing but empty inside
Hearing all the words you had to lie.
How could I ever think that I loved you?
Knowing all that shit you just had to put me through
Oh my god,
you're such a fucking asshole
you made my heart weak
I don't think I can go on
Ever since you left
I've been in constant mourning
Watching and waiting
for the rain to continue pouring
I love you but then I hate you
I'm so confused, but yet so lost
You never seem to know
I'm just another you forgot
You just dropped everything
now I'm just here
here alone
without any true meaning
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| The Layout |
[28 Aug 2004|02:12pm] |
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Sam STILL On The Phone |
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I love the new layout, not just cuz Tyson looks AMAZINGLY gorgeous. Just cuz I did it. I may want to put The Darkness on it. No. I'll leave the Rejects on this one and put The Darkness on my other LJ. Yes, thats what I'll do.
Last night, I went to that dumbass game. Don't know why I went, but I did. Me, Sam & Brandy were like rolling around on the football field, and started to do the running man and then a damn lesbian cop told us to get off the field. So yeah. I'm done.
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[22 Aug 2004|07:59pm] |
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Hoobastank- "Out Of Control" |
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| Another Poem |
[21 Aug 2004|02:32pm] |
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"Someone To Die For" |
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Why don't you hear me?
Can't you just stay here & talk to me?
What is it that you;re so afraid of?
Is it that you know that you may actually care?
Why don't you finally break down
& realize that what we once had was real?
You said it once before,
right before you got up & went to that whore
You mean everything to me
Don't you realize you're the one I need?
Even if you told me how you felt
I could never give you another chance
Although I still have feelings for you
it'll never erase all the shit you put me through
Its been awhile since then
but it hurts more than anything I can think of
when it replays in my mind over & over again
So why don't you just admit
that what you did was wrong?
so it'll finally proove
that I was right along.
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[14 Aug 2004|09:00pm] |
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Cheaters (Damn Them All! Damn Them All To Hell!) |
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Well school starts like the day after tomorrow. I'm nervous. Very nervous.
-sighs-
I really hope that he does have my lunch, but then now that she has it, too, it probably won't do anything. Maybe I'm just expecting me and him to get back together, but yeah. He's gonna be up the Arrangatang's ass. Oh shit! I hope she doesn't have English with me. If she does I'm SOOOOO getting a schedule change. Ok think about it: if they get together, he'll be walking her to class then kissing her right there. Do you know how bad that will fucking hurt me?! It was bad enough last year when he would walk her to class like he used to walk me, when they weren't even together, but to actually BE together. It would probably kill me. Emotionally & Mentally. On the first day, I'm gonna try EVERYthing, to make him forget about her totally! Okay, I'm getting upset & Cheaters is on, so I'm gonna watch it.
Later Days.....
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| Zombie.... |
[04 Aug 2004|03:48pm] |
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Blink 182- "Dysentery Gary" |
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I've felt like a complete zombie all day. Dammit! I really hate this shit.
A poem:
So much denying
so tired of trying
don't you even care?
do you still know how I feel?
with one last look of his face,
who he knew, so easily he could replace,
knowing it would never last.
still here searching in the past for some resolution.
realizing we could never be
wondering if you're still thinking of me
is what I constantly hope for
so tired of it all
do you hear me calling from a far?
hear me crying late at night?
wishing you were still here with me,
but ending up together is what we can never be.
so what will I do,
so I can finally prove
that I am the one
you should choose?
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| Wow, How Odd..... |
[03 Aug 2004|11:07am] |
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All American Rejects- "Too Far Gone" |
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I have registration in about 2 hours and I have a feeling like something is going to happen. Who knows? The thought that keeps going through my mind is Kris will show up there and be all over the arangatang, right there and totally ignore me. I can just feel it. Ugh! If that happens I don't know what Ii'll do. Knowing me, I'll probably just ignore then everytime I see one of my friends they'll tell me that they've seen him with her and with every person that comes up and tells me, I'll get even more pissed off. Blah!!!! I'm totally anticipated the worst, I know, but with my oh-so-good-luck its bound to happen.
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| Ponder....... |
[02 Aug 2004|05:45pm] |
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The Golden Girls |
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He keeps calling, and today, he brought up that arangatang's name. Damn him. If he fucking wants her slut-ass so much, why doesn't he go and stick his dick up her. What the fuck? I really don't understand him, but oh well. School starts in 2 weeks and I just wanna get it over with.
I hope the gorilla and the arangatang get pregnant, so I can laugh at them and yell:
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| Hmm.... |
[29 Jul 2004|02:07pm] |
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Blink 182- "Obvious" |
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Well he hasn't called today. I really shouldn't be this paranoid about it, but unfortunetly I am. I knew this would happen. Why in the fuck did I answer the phone?! I mean, he cheated on me, lied to me, just wanted to fuck me, called me that damn slut's name and etc. I'm not gonna worry about it or at least try not to.
*sighs*
Damn him!
Damn him to the hole he escaped from!
My AAR buckle should be here soon!! I hope it looks ok with the belt I got from Hot Topic and if not dammit!!!!
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| Blah.....Blah.....Blah |
[03 Jul 2004|12:07pm] |
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Less Than Jake "Blah Blah Blah" |
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Hello to any of my friends who realize this is another journal of mine and has been so smart to find it!!! Good for you!!!
I don't like Phillip I really don't. ewwww. He's not my type and he's odd. Chris W. likes me again or so I hear. Ok......why? I feel like total blah right now. So I think I;m gonna go. Malori still isn't awake yet & I hope she's not dead. These damn pictures won't scan so I'm gonna leave & cuss to myself alone.
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| Its My First.....on this name anyway. |
[31 May 2004|11:46am] |
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Hoobastank- #10 on The Reason(?) |
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I still can't believe she did that. She's suppose to be my best friend, she knew how much I liked him. Who in the hell is all over a guy you like? I bet if I did that to her she'd be pissed. I cleaned out my room today, throwing away all my papers and shit from like 7th grade. I threw away lots of notes but I could'nt bring myself to throw away the letter Kris wrote me. *sigh* I wish I was still talking to him. The way we used to talk on the phone still tickles me. I doubt I like Chris anymore. Why did I ever let him read the spiral? Oh well. Doesn't really matter now, cuz I've fucked everything up with anyone I've ever liked. But then, again, there's always next year, when I'll be a sophomore. Woo-fucking-hoo.
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